UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!...Jealousy STRIKESSSS!!!

After viewing most of my posts in this idle blog, I realized that I need to lightened up a little from the way I express my thoughts. I put myself into other people’s shoes (or in short, with an open mind) and read through my postings, it’s rather ridiculously LENGTHY and dramatically DEPRESSING!!!...owh man…well…I guess that is truly the inner feelings that I badly wanna let go…and glad I did it, coz it sure feels wayyyyy better to let it all out, eventhough it’s not through any trusted human being…I guess that’s the beauty of blogging, a medium of expression provided that you’re not dissing anybody for the sake of embarrassment or humiliation…

Anyway, back to what this post is all about, as what you can see on the title, yup, this post right now is to let go of some immense jealousy that strucked me this morning, and I’m still holding on to it until now L…2 things happened this morning in the office that caused me to keep my envious rage inside of me…I’m gonna name them J1 and J2 for easier ‘navigation’ through out the post…J1 was like, well, actually J1 has started about 2 weeks ago, when my officemate came to me and told me that he’ll be away with his family for an annual family trip/get-together to MACAU, BEIJING and HONG KONG!!!...hmmmm…I’ve been to Beijing before, but when I heard he mentioned MACAU and HONG KONG, I was paralyzed with envy and immediately replied to him with my rotten soul that portrays clearly on my sad looking face…Can you imagine how cool was that? Going overseas with the people who are dearest to you and have endless fun for days without having to worry about anything back home…I’ve experienced that once with my family 3 years ago in Brisbane, Australia…and we’ll grab any chance out there possible to go through that again, I can still vividly remembered how everything turned out and took place on a family trip like that…haaaaaaahhhhh, I know that officemate of mine will definitely facing the same joy together with his family, and by tomorrow morning at this very moment, he is already with his family touching down in MACAU…yup, and that sure does filled me up with all the jealousy needed to hold my inner rage up at him…aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Hahahahaha…little that I know that my ‘aaarrrgggghhh’ is actually far from over…while I’m slowly digesting the fate of everyone’s luck on going on an end of the year holiday, J2 decided to show up…J2 came in a form of another officemate that somehow I realized he’s been wondering around in the office for days…as if he’s kinda Jobless…well, this guy is actually a friend to a cousin of mine back in Australia (not that I’m the one who got the job here or anything, it’s just something that I simply wanna mentioned :P )…It’s kind of a surprise to know that he’s already back here and fully employed while my cousin is still in Australia for another year…hmmmmm…anyway, while he was wondering around closely to my place, I decided to stop him with a HI and we had a small chat…as I asked him about his ‘free timeline’ for the past few days, apparently he has the answer for that…HE IS LEAVING THE COMPANY AND HIS LAST DAY IS 2 DAYS FROM NOW…yup, well, I guess there’s nothing for me to be jealous about, or at least I thought I should…he told me he’s leaving cause he wants to continue his studies in Warwick University (Malaysia Campus) and fly back to Australia to accept this job offer and become a resident there with his GF…OH MY GOD!!!...what a beautiful life that will turn out to be…yeah, for him at least…as for me, I smiled at him while little that he know that I was grinding my teeth with FULL ENVY TO THE EXTREME!!!...Arrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh…DOUBLE AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!....I WANNA GO ON A BREAK TOO BUT I DON’T KNOW WHERE TO GO AND WHO TO GO WITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!...End… J

Another Confession Of A Broken Heart…Severely Broken!!!...

Rome and Paris...Haaahhhh...isn't it nice if we get to be there in one flow?...:(

I don’t know about you (whoever you are out there), somehow I realized that most of my postings here are much more driven towards the negativity of things. Yes I know that surrounding yourself with endless negativities was never healthy in the first place, let alone if you’re trying to think that you are the most unfortunate soul God has ever created…Yup, it was never good to look at yourself in such a way…but what if your life was portraying the bad side of things all this while (well, not all the time), what if you realized that indeed your life is not as flexible or friendly enough like other people do, especially with your family members?...well, I’m not here to let off some ‘under the sheets’ issues, but after what happened to me yesterday evening, I realized the truth behind the statement ‘You Are Alone In This World’…I know that the issue I’m about to lay out here might sound like a pathetic piece of trash, but hey, for me, it says something about my life at the moment…everybody has their own unique ways of finding out what life is, it comes in various treatments whether it’s a sad one or joyful one that deserves some ‘mass exposure’…so here goes…

  I bet everyone has a target on places that they want to go before they die right? Hahaha, well, I’m no exception to that either. All my life I have selected few countries that I wish to visit (at least) before I passed on. Hmmmm…let me try to list it down again...Mekah (Saudi Arabia), Dubai (UAE), Macau & Beijing (China), New York & Los Angeles (US), Tokyo, Osaka & Hokkaido (Japan), Rome (Italy), Vatican City, Paris (France), London (UK), Cairo (Egypt), Greece, …Sydney, Melbourne & Gold Coast (Australia), Amsterdam (Holland),  New Delhi (India) just to name a few…and Alhamdulillah, I’ve already visited some of the places listed above and experienced all the wonders and magical surroundings it offered…But noticed among all those countries there’s one that I purposely bold it all of a sudden, yeah, it’s ROME…I don’t know why really, but I have a different kind of fascination for ROME…I know other countries offers the same level of visual beauty and historical landmarks but ROME has its own persona in almost everything…Not too long ago I had a post telling about my cousin who’s planning to go to Italy to meet up with her ‘significant other’ and spend the rest of the duration by sight-seeing in Florence and me and another cousin of mine is planning to go there just to spice things up a little…nope, this is not a post that ‘pick up where it left off’ or a sequel or anything in particular to that post…Yesterday morning while I was reading a local newspaper, I stumbled on to this page that’s highlighting a CRAZY holiday offers from our very own Malaysia Airlines…Malaysia Airlines is our local airline system that we Malaysians are VERY PROUD OF…They won numerous awards and recognitions both local and international platform, and their service regardless if you’re a first class, business class or even economy class ticket holders will be pampered and served equally good throughout your journey…with a price of course…but that totally changed with that offer I mentioned just now…can you imagined they’re offering flight tickets to places like New York, Dubai, London, Beijing and other world-renown destinations at a price as low as RM 2400!!! And it’s a 2-way ticket okay…and to my surprise, ROME IS IN THE LIST AS WELL!!!...Driven by sheer excitement, I called up my cousin to tell her about the offer and of course she jumped on it as well…So at that moment we planned on how to pay for the tickets considering that the offer only lasted for 3 DAYS!!! That can only mean the tickets are selling like piping hot cakes for sure…so I tried to use my skill of persuasion at my dad by blessing me with his agreement on paying the tickets up front for me, in which DEFINITELY I’ll pay him back later…so I called him at his office, and knowing my dad, famous for his bad temper combined with his bold choice of words, I was nagged for almost 10 minutes before I stop it all off by asking him again is it OK or NOT OK…with some deep sigh, he agrees, with a dramatic slam of the phone…owh well, he slammed the phone alright, but he AGREED!!!...Yeeaaayyyyy…wow…that was a sheer surprise, I never know my pathetic art of persuasion is working this time…so I called my cousin again to tell her the good news and she too told me she got a green light from her parents and that evening, she planned to come over to my place with my aunt and a friend of hers for some ‘meeting’ with my relatives and we’ll finalized the entire ticket bookings from home…eeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk…I guess ROME…HERE WE COME!!!...:D

  Well, at least that’s how I wish…when I reached home, my cousins and few relatives of mine are already there, but then they can’t stay for long because of other appointments that came after that…I went up and change my clothes and then I saw my dad walking towards the kitchen for dinner I suppose…I decided to ‘join’ him as well in order to get the ‘clarification’ that I need for my trip. While he was munching down his dinner, I decided to tell him my gentle reminder about what we discussed earlier…I don’t know what’s got into me at that moment but somehow I knew it’s not really appropriate to ask people anything while they are having their meal…So I got a short, simple reply from my dad telling me to let him finish his meal first of all...Okay, I guess he’s right, I shouldn’t have ask him that…so I went out from the kitchen to my living room where I was anxiously waiting with my cousins for my dad. Whenever there’s me and my cousins flocking around together, of course we happily chi-chatting about this plan of ours on how cool it would be if we really going to do it, and not to mention the amount of pictures we’re going to take…All in the name of family fun overseas…we went talking and laughing our way when I realized that the time is more than enough to let my dad finish off his dinner…so I went back to the kitchen and to my surprise my dad was no longer there…he went up to his bedroom and decided to stay in until he wants to come out again (which only God knows when)…I know my dad really well at this, this is one of the ways of telling me that he’s not on the same path as I am without having to say NO or against me…He somehow knows that I will get his message and whatever I’m planning to do at that time will be put into a complete stop!...so yeah, I guess my dad doesn’t want to help me by the end of the day…you know, in this kind of situation, it makes me realized that you can’t really depend on anybody in trying to get what you want, even your own immediate family members…I know my situation is so silly for some people knowing my dad doesn’t want to pay for my ticket in advance eventhough he knew I’m going to pay him back, and going on a holiday is not a long term investment…yes I’m so aware of that, but nevertheless, it is what I want at the moment, and shouldn’t family members suppose to be there when they are needed the most?...well, it’s not happening here on my side…and as for that cousin of mine, hahahaha, well, I told her we have options about this trip, either we take the Malaysian Airlines offer or we can stick to our initial plan of waiting until December for Kuwait Airlines (call us desparate, but getting there is what matters)…but to my surprise again, she said she’s going to book the local flight offer anyway, and told me she’s okay travelling alone considering that she has contacts once she arrived…I don’t know, I thought I’m in this plan with her, but if that is she wants to do by the end of the day, well, now I know my presence is not anyone’s importance in the first place…so yeah, I BLEW OFF my Paris & Rome plan YET AGAIN!!!...this time, the sadness is unbearable for me…I really felt crushed and I REALLY REALLY want to cry!!!...My other cousin, the one who’s going to Italy for real to meet up with her BF, she can tell that I’m not in a very good state emotionally…so she treated me with McDonald’s flurry ice-cream on our way to her place, watched ANTM season 11 & THS on The Kardashians. All that really cools me down, just to show that solitude comes when you least expect it, but it will never come at all if you don’t learn to except your own fate and destiny. She even told me to just hang in there and maybe I can still try my luck on the Kuwait Airlines ticket…you know what, maybe I should, and that definitely the inner ointment that I need to get rid of this murderous sadness.

  I slept with all that drama in my head that night. The next morning, I decided to call my cousin and let her know about my next step regarding this trip. Hahahaha. This cousin of mine is a surprise in her own right. Jut when I thought that I’ll probably be travelling alone to Paris & Rome, she told me that she had a change of mind if she wants to take the local flight offer. So she too will be sticking to the Kuwait Airlines offer in December…Alhamdulillah, something to make me release the sigh of joy…Now, there’s still hope for the trip, and pumped up about it again…let’s just hope nothing will happened as we approach the trip date and my end of the year bonus is enough to cover me for the trip…Insyaallah…J

FABULOUSITY….ARRRGGGHHHHH I MISSED IT BADLY!!!

Wooahhhhh…what a week it has been, I certainly just couldn’t imagine that we have been given the opportunity to gather up again and just reminisce about what we have been through to get to where we are today. Not that we’re top notch big shots in our own game or turf (well, not yet :P), but somehow we realized that there is some good in looking back to our past and just fantasizing the fulfilling process in getting the best of what is assigned to us…and what a journey it was…In fact, it is so special, every chance that come our way will be snatched ravishly just for the sake of getting back together and lazying around like the good old days…Brace for urself my LONGEST POST EVERRRRRRRRR SO FAR!!!

And that is exactly what we did last weekend (Deepavali weekend)…like they say, it took months of planning and executing in order for everything to be done within days, or should we say, overnight…But no matter how brief that may sound, WE HAD ONE HELLUVA BLAST!!!!...What more can you ask then a retreat from the city to a nearby seaside getaway for some casual micro reunion with all the special people in your life that you got acquainted during your student days and just stripping down your responsibilities for a while and happily appreciating the company of one another…It sure is an interesting story to tell on how we finally reached the decision in proceeding with this gathering no matter what the situation is…:P

Facebook, yup, the epidemic community website that makes everybody and everything in it looked really cool, well, one day I’m so bored with nothing to do and nothing much to spend on, so there I was at home one fine day in front of my laptop and I decided to spice up my profile a little…not by adding anymore of its crappy applications or sending flowers or drinks or snowglobes and hoping they would be kind enough to return it back to you, I decided to add more personal touches instead…DIGITAL PHOTOS!!!...yesssss, good old digital photos!!!...owh man, imagine all the things that it can bring you back just by looking at it really…it can also be some sort of a memorabilia and even act as a good introduction to people who doesn’t know who I really am and what I’ve been up to back then…and I decided to create some digital photo albums in Facebook that features a lot of what we’ve been through as a group of students having the time of our lives…And photos during our maiden trip to PD is the best choice I had at that moment…So there I was filtering and uploading the pictures all at once and decided to create a photoblog with nice captions to fit in every photos in it…It sure has an emotional toll on me, I was immediately transported back to that situation and boy it was one helluva good feeling…I’m not lying here, but I had some teary-eyed moments to most of the photos considering that we can no longer turn back the time, one of us had even moved on to marriage, and not to mention everybody’s busyness with their professional careers…But that pathetic mindset needs a DEFINITE change…we can still enjoy each other’s company, it’s just a matter of are you up for it, or you’re out from it…

Hehehe…You know what can happened once you upload numbers of nostalgic photos all in one go right? Brace yourself for some serious never ending comments that starts pouring in like madness…they are cynical cursings, emotional outburst, ticklish giggly feedbacks and not to mention simple but sweet ‘missing you’ quotes…in short, it seems I’m not the only one strucked by the priceless experience of those photos, EVERYBODY DID!!!...that was when the brilliant idea starting to take shape…We all decided to take the weekend during Deepavali (since that it falls on a Monday, which means it’s gonna be a long weekend) to set as the official date for our trip…Lucky for us, accommodation wise, I managed to get help from my aunty and she blessed us all by providing us with her own unit at The Legend Water Chalet!!!...yup, so no problem to hotel hunting for us…transportation is provided by myself and a friend of mine…Just was everything was about to fall into place, we were crushed with some bad news, a double whammy actually…2 of our friends can’t make it to the trip for some unavoidable reasons…dayymmmmm…we even tried real hard on trying to come up with solutions on how to slot them in no matter what, but like they say, it was never yours if it was never meant to be…so with some serious heavy hearts, we have to accept the fact that 2 of us will not be there for the trip, I guess it’s just gonna be 5 of us by the end of the day…Then one of our friend strucked out a suggestion stating that he’s thinking of bringing his Swedish friend along to our trip, which coincidentally he is in town on a holiday…hmmmm…there are some doubts at first considering that there might be some uneasiness among us of having an unknown foreigner tagging along in our long planned trip, but we were assured that this guy shares the same wavelength as we all are and we will not have any trouble blending in…and besides, meeting up with new people from another country can be rather interesting…

So the long awaited Sunday noon finally arrived, we gather everybody up at KL Sentral and we head on straight to PD…the journey is rather smooth considering everybody is either relaxing or went back to their hometown for the long weekend…we bought some munchies to accompany our never ending communication throughout our journey…around 1.20pm we finally reached PD in one piece…we went to the water chalet to dump our stuffs but we were told to come back at 3pm since that it is the official check in time, so we’re pretty much bluddy early…darrrrnnnnn…anyway, we decided to kill our time by having lunch at a local eatery that serves PD local seafood favourites…our Swedish friend tried his hand on Siput Sedut…yeah, something that I never fancied in my entire life, but this Swedish guy LOVES IT TO THE MAX!!!...he continues sucking away until it was half done…we all had a lovely lunch and we headed back to the hotel again to check ourselves in…That was when the amazement begin…our room is such a shocker, not only the front door lead you to the bathroom first, but the bathroom and the bedroom floors is furnished with see through glass that enables you to see the ocean below…OMG! OMG! OMG!...that was the most honest reaction ever from all of us …compared to the hotel that we rented out when we first came, this one is a total knock out!!!...Thanks to my aunty for her generosity…we switch on the air condition system, placed our stuffs and just settling down a for a while after a long journey…cam whoring session is a must when it comes to having a room as good as that…after some short nap, we decided to hit the beach right away…so all of us changed to our beach gear (shorts and t-shirts) and headed straight to the beach…

Once we’re there, we realized that some places remain unchanged, which transport us back to our student days feeling…ahhhhhh, it was a once in a lifetime sensation coming back in full blast…then we decided to go to our private mangrove island that we discovered during our first trip…that’s where we’re hit with another shocker…the pier that connects the island to the beach is closed down due to its rigid structure…ooowwwwhhhhhh maaaannnnnn…going to the mangrove is a must!!!...but lady luck is not on our side this time, even the manual route to the island is filled with sea water, so it’s rather deep for us to cross through…but you know what, rather than walking away with disappointments, we decided to give it a go anyway…we really can’t waste anymore time now that we’re here and having this ‘obstacles’ limiting us all…so we just swam our way and we reached our mangrove retreat…owh man, it’s still remains as it is after our last trip there 4 years ago…the natural formations of the mangroves and the sands that is filled with small crabs activities is truly a class on its own…so we just walk around the island appreciating our moments there for about half an hour until we decided it’s time for all of us to take a deep in the ocean…so all of us starts splashing around each other and simply letting it loose and embrace the company of another yet again…for me, it’s complete heaven in every essence of the word…That was when we realized the setting was perfect, we got beautiful sunset and we had our first group portrait for the trip, and we even start to blend in with the Swedish guy really well…it was special…really special…J

After that, we headed straight to the public baths to rinse that sand off and from there we proceed to dinner time…we went to our favourite Mutiara Seafood Restaurant for their deadly Sotong Goreng Tepung (or so we thought it was)!!!...the portion is still as big as before, but I realized there is a major difference in the flour that they used…it’s not as spicy as it used to be…and, we’re kinda crushed about it, well, certain things do change huh…but what the heck, like they say, enjoying any kind of meal with your closest buddies surely makes any meal special and unforgettable…and this on is no exception…we were all too bloated to move around anymore, so we decided to go back to our water chalet and just spend the night partying…not any kind of party by the way, it was real simple…simplicity is our concept…we just switched on the TV, played some good chillin music from the laptop, opened some munchies and tit-bits, and just lounging around with each other and had a Great laugh ALL NIGHT LONG!!!...:)…we even had some interesting heart to heart talk with one another, including the Swedish guy, which makes it like a true ice-breaking moment for all of us to bear some necessary things to one another, and we did it at the balcony of the boys room, and the setting and mood at that moment can never anymore flawless, the chilly breeze sails smoothly at the right speed, the moon was surprisingly bright enough and sound of the ocean completes the entire friendly retreat that we’re hoping for…we continued chit chatting for hours until some of us decided to catch some good programme from the TV and interesting videos loaded in YouTube ;P…After chilling for quite some time in that room, me and some friends decided to take an evening walk around the water chalets compound just to laze around since that the place is still active with people walking laughing around at that time (it’s waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy pass midnight really)…so we went out (me and my sarong) and just slowly walk our way through all the passages and pathways around the water chalets and it sure is soothing considering it’s rather private, yet it has that quite neighbourhood atmosphere where other guests would walk around the areas as well, or got cozy and comfy on their chalet’s balcony, having a good laugh in their rooms or even the ones who decided to get an early shut eye…The whole entire moment is more than just relaxing…I guess concentrating to what we want to achieve back home in the city can make you felt draggy and rather unappreciative with what life can really pamper you with, and it doesn’t have to cost you a BOMB to get it…After that, we went back to our chalet, the girls went back to theirs and we finally decided to call it a night…a really good night…or was it morning? ;P…

Owh man…you won’t believe what is the thing that managed to wake me up from my beautiful slumber…while I was slowly moving my eyelids caused by the bright sunlight that morning, I felt something is moving aggressively right beside me, I can really felt the urgency from that movement like piling up bunch of pillows, pulling the blanket from my feet and some movements like uneasy shakings until it slowly dies down…I slowly reached for my phone and it was about 9am…that’s was when I realized it was actually one of my friends WHO JUST WANTS TO GET INTO BED!!!...That Guy WAS ABOUT TO GO TO SLEEP!!!...Yeah, the shine of daylight is immensely coming in and this friend of mine finally decided to get some shut eye….whooooaaaahhhhhh…crazy! madness!...well, I don’t really care considering that I know he was out and about the entire night and only now things starts to make him rather sleepy, but considering that we have to check out of there by 12pm because the room is booked by another group of guests right after us, and the management need to some time to make the room up before they come in…well, that can only mean that this friend of mine will only get 1 or 2 hours of sleep…hoho darn…Finaly around 11am, me, the girls, the Swedish guy and one of the boys is up and we all start to take our shower and start packing our stuffs up in order to get out of there before 12pm…and yeah, our 9am guy is the last to do it…once everybody is freshen up and done with their stuffs we decided to have another group portrait in the room itself as our way of ending the blastful session in that room, or in simpler terms, to say goodbye…it was that moment in which I realized that this trip is slowly heading towards the end of its time, and I start to miss it coz the highlight of dumping everyone in one place and had a ball of a time is over, it’s up to us to end it the way it should be…once we checked out, we planned to end it all in a more unconventional manner, we decided to head further south to Melaka!!!...yeah, as if PD is not enough, Melaka is our destination of the day. After abut an hour drive, we reached Melaka, Bandaraya Bersejarah…since that we reached there at lunchtime, we headed straight to this one restaurant which is believed to serve the best Asam Pedas in Melaka…yup, Asam Pedas is a favourite local delicacy here in Melaka…it’s nothing close to a curry or anything, it’s lighter, clearer, more soup like cuisine and it’s spice and tangy at the same time…but just like curry, Asam Pedas is flexible enough to be prepared with fish, chicken or even stingray!!!...And it really fascinates me to see our Swedish guy again enjoying himself with home-made local fares…this guy sure has no boundaries in taste when it come to eating…he had the stingray Asam Pedas…while the rest of us had the fish Asam Pedas and other favourites like Masak Lemak Daging Salai Cili Api, Sambal Sotong, Ulam , Perut and much more…And I guess there is some sort of relevance why the place managed to get it’s famous reputation…everything tasted REALLY GOOD!!!...with really cheap price…all that is a recipe for good long-term business…I’m not really a fan of Asam Pedas, but this place sure makes me slurping for more…:P

After that delightful lunch, we headed straight to the spot in Melaka where it is a must for you to go regardless whether you’re a tourist or you’re a local driving down to Melaka…the A’Famosa and Istana Melaka and everything around them…even the newly built Menara Taming Sari looked pretty amazing…So there we were strolling down the area…Swedish guy just can’t stop snapping away and from there we went into the Istana Melaka…it’s actually a replica made based on the original Istana Melaka, which has been burned down for mystical purpose during the old Malay Sultanate times…the place is actually a museum showcasing exhibits highlighting a lot of traditional items and issues that revolves all around the old Melaka…It was here where me and my friends played tour-guide to Swedish Guy by explaining to him what is what of what we know in the museum…After all that, I realized everybody starting to take a peek and their watches and some even has given me the ‘immense tiredness’ look…Yup, I guess the whole trip must end here!!!...But before we go, hehe, we need to get our last final group portrait again…So there was this security guard nearby who’s friendly enough to snap the photo for us, eventhough he did’t really understand on how we want the picture to be shot…but what the heck, at least we all know where we were and how special this trip has turned out to be…so we all smiled and our final group photo was snapped…

Right after that, we all looked at each other and we all knew that everything has come to an end…so we hugged each other  and wished everybody the best in whatever they do and we sure have to make this a yearly event (while we still can) and efinitely looking forward on what our next trio should be like…so everyone hopped back into their rides and we headed back straight to KL…While my friend and Swedish Guy were fast asleep, me and another friend had a small talk on how lucky we were to have these people around us and shares the same level of joy and cheerfulness of one another while we’re there…yup, trying to come up with a gang nowadays is something that is totally uncertain, coz we realized that youngsters nowadays are more keen to grow up fast without realizing the importance of friendship that does play an important role in carrying you further to your dreams…Time sure flys by so fast when you’re heading home, before we send Swedish Guy back to his backpackers lodge, we stop by KLCC to get something for him to remember us back in Sweden…I chipped in some cash and my friend bought him a nice Royal Selangor fire pendant as a best wishes gift, we gave it to him when we reached his backpackers lodge…after some emotional last words and good luck hugs, we left him there as he is boarding a flight to Vietnam the very next morning…Then I sent another friend back home and send my last friend back home as well…

And when I finally reached my place, I just unload my stuffs and head straight to my room…I just lay down on my bed and just can’t stop wondering the special moments we had during the trip…it was just what I need…a meaningful trip to a beautiful retreat…haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…until the next trip Insyaallah…J