Rome and Paris...Haaahhhh...isn't it nice if we get to be there in one flow?...:(
I don’t know about you (whoever you are out there), somehow I realized that most of my postings here are much more driven towards the negativity of things. Yes I know that surrounding yourself with endless negativities was never healthy in the first place, let alone if you’re trying to think that you are the most unfortunate soul God has ever created…Yup, it was never good to look at yourself in such a way…but what if your life was portraying the bad side of things all this while (well, not all the time), what if you realized that indeed your life is not as flexible or friendly enough like other people do, especially with your family members?...well, I’m not here to let off some ‘under the sheets’ issues, but after what happened to me yesterday evening, I realized the truth behind the statement ‘You Are Alone In This World’…I know that the issue I’m about to lay out here might sound like a pathetic piece of trash, but hey, for me, it says something about my life at the moment…everybody has their own unique ways of finding out what life is, it comes in various treatments whether it’s a sad one or joyful one that deserves some ‘mass exposure’…so here goes…
I bet everyone has a target on places that they want to go before they die right? Hahaha, well, I’m no exception to that either. All my life I have selected few countries that I wish to visit (at least) before I passed on. Hmmmm…let me try to list it down again...Mekah (Saudi Arabia), Dubai (UAE), Macau & Beijing (China), New York & Los Angeles (US), Tokyo, Osaka & Hokkaido (Japan), Rome (Italy), Vatican City, Paris (France), London (UK), Cairo (Egypt), Greece, …Sydney, Melbourne & Gold Coast (Australia), Amsterdam (Holland), New Delhi (India) just to name a few…and Alhamdulillah, I’ve already visited some of the places listed above and experienced all the wonders and magical surroundings it offered…But noticed among all those countries there’s one that I purposely bold it all of a sudden, yeah, it’s ROME…I don’t know why really, but I have a different kind of fascination for ROME…I know other countries offers the same level of visual beauty and historical landmarks but ROME has its own persona in almost everything…Not too long ago I had a post telling about my cousin who’s planning to go to Italy to meet up with her ‘significant other’ and spend the rest of the duration by sight-seeing in Florence and me and another cousin of mine is planning to go there just to spice things up a little…nope, this is not a post that ‘pick up where it left off’ or a sequel or anything in particular to that post…Yesterday morning while I was reading a local newspaper, I stumbled on to this page that’s highlighting a CRAZY holiday offers from our very own Malaysia Airlines…Malaysia Airlines is our local airline system that we Malaysians are VERY PROUD OF…They won numerous awards and recognitions both local and international platform, and their service regardless if you’re a first class, business class or even economy class ticket holders will be pampered and served equally good throughout your journey…with a price of course…but that totally changed with that offer I mentioned just now…can you imagined they’re offering flight tickets to places like New York, Dubai, London, Beijing and other world-renown destinations at a price as low as RM 2400!!! And it’s a 2-way ticket okay…and to my surprise, ROME IS IN THE LIST AS WELL!!!...Driven by sheer excitement, I called up my cousin to tell her about the offer and of course she jumped on it as well…So at that moment we planned on how to pay for the tickets considering that the offer only lasted for 3 DAYS!!! That can only mean the tickets are selling like piping hot cakes for sure…so I tried to use my skill of persuasion at my dad by blessing me with his agreement on paying the tickets up front for me, in which DEFINITELY I’ll pay him back later…so I called him at his office, and knowing my dad, famous for his bad temper combined with his bold choice of words, I was nagged for almost 10 minutes before I stop it all off by asking him again is it OK or NOT OK…with some deep sigh, he agrees, with a dramatic slam of the phone…owh well, he slammed the phone alright, but he AGREED!!!...Yeeaaayyyyy…wow…that was a sheer surprise, I never know my pathetic art of persuasion is working this time…so I called my cousin again to tell her the good news and she too told me she got a green light from her parents and that evening, she planned to come over to my place with my aunt and a friend of hers for some ‘meeting’ with my relatives and we’ll finalized the entire ticket bookings from home…eeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk…I guess ROME…HERE WE COME!!!...:D
Well, at least that’s how I wish…when I reached home, my cousins and few relatives of mine are already there, but then they can’t stay for long because of other appointments that came after that…I went up and change my clothes and then I saw my dad walking towards the kitchen for dinner I suppose…I decided to ‘join’ him as well in order to get the ‘clarification’ that I need for my trip. While he was munching down his dinner, I decided to tell him my gentle reminder about what we discussed earlier…I don’t know what’s got into me at that moment but somehow I knew it’s not really appropriate to ask people anything while they are having their meal…So I got a short, simple reply from my dad telling me to let him finish his meal first of all...Okay, I guess he’s right, I shouldn’t have ask him that…so I went out from the kitchen to my living room where I was anxiously waiting with my cousins for my dad. Whenever there’s me and my cousins flocking around together, of course we happily chi-chatting about this plan of ours on how cool it would be if we really going to do it, and not to mention the amount of pictures we’re going to take…All in the name of family fun overseas…we went talking and laughing our way when I realized that the time is more than enough to let my dad finish off his dinner…so I went back to the kitchen and to my surprise my dad was no longer there…he went up to his bedroom and decided to stay in until he wants to come out again (which only God knows when)…I know my dad really well at this, this is one of the ways of telling me that he’s not on the same path as I am without having to say NO or against me…He somehow knows that I will get his message and whatever I’m planning to do at that time will be put into a complete stop!...so yeah, I guess my dad doesn’t want to help me by the end of the day…you know, in this kind of situation, it makes me realized that you can’t really depend on anybody in trying to get what you want, even your own immediate family members…I know my situation is so silly for some people knowing my dad doesn’t want to pay for my ticket in advance eventhough he knew I’m going to pay him back, and going on a holiday is not a long term investment…yes I’m so aware of that, but nevertheless, it is what I want at the moment, and shouldn’t family members suppose to be there when they are needed the most?...well, it’s not happening here on my side…and as for that cousin of mine, hahahaha, well, I told her we have options about this trip, either we take the Malaysian Airlines offer or we can stick to our initial plan of waiting until December for Kuwait Airlines (call us desparate, but getting there is what matters)…but to my surprise again, she said she’s going to book the local flight offer anyway, and told me she’s okay travelling alone considering that she has contacts once she arrived…I don’t know, I thought I’m in this plan with her, but if that is she wants to do by the end of the day, well, now I know my presence is not anyone’s importance in the first place…so yeah, I BLEW OFF my Paris & Rome plan YET AGAIN!!!...this time, the sadness is unbearable for me…I really felt crushed and I REALLY REALLY want to cry!!!...My other cousin, the one who’s going to Italy for real to meet up with her BF, she can tell that I’m not in a very good state emotionally…so she treated me with McDonald’s flurry ice-cream on our way to her place, watched ANTM season 11 & THS on The Kardashians. All that really cools me down, just to show that solitude comes when you least expect it, but it will never come at all if you don’t learn to except your own fate and destiny. She even told me to just hang in there and maybe I can still try my luck on the Kuwait Airlines ticket…you know what, maybe I should, and that definitely the inner ointment that I need to get rid of this murderous sadness.
I slept with all that drama in my head that night. The next morning, I decided to call my cousin and let her know about my next step regarding this trip. Hahahaha. This cousin of mine is a surprise in her own right. Jut when I thought that I’ll probably be travelling alone to Paris & Rome, she told me that she had a change of mind if she wants to take the local flight offer. So she too will be sticking to the Kuwait Airlines offer in December…Alhamdulillah, something to make me release the sigh of joy…Now, there’s still hope for the trip, and pumped up about it again…let’s just hope nothing will happened as we approach the trip date and my end of the year bonus is enough to cover me for the trip…Insyaallah…J
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