UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!...Jealousy STRIKESSSS!!!

After viewing most of my posts in this idle blog, I realized that I need to lightened up a little from the way I express my thoughts. I put myself into other people’s shoes (or in short, with an open mind) and read through my postings, it’s rather ridiculously LENGTHY and dramatically DEPRESSING!!!...owh man…well…I guess that is truly the inner feelings that I badly wanna let go…and glad I did it, coz it sure feels wayyyyy better to let it all out, eventhough it’s not through any trusted human being…I guess that’s the beauty of blogging, a medium of expression provided that you’re not dissing anybody for the sake of embarrassment or humiliation…

Anyway, back to what this post is all about, as what you can see on the title, yup, this post right now is to let go of some immense jealousy that strucked me this morning, and I’m still holding on to it until now L…2 things happened this morning in the office that caused me to keep my envious rage inside of me…I’m gonna name them J1 and J2 for easier ‘navigation’ through out the post…J1 was like, well, actually J1 has started about 2 weeks ago, when my officemate came to me and told me that he’ll be away with his family for an annual family trip/get-together to MACAU, BEIJING and HONG KONG!!!...hmmmm…I’ve been to Beijing before, but when I heard he mentioned MACAU and HONG KONG, I was paralyzed with envy and immediately replied to him with my rotten soul that portrays clearly on my sad looking face…Can you imagine how cool was that? Going overseas with the people who are dearest to you and have endless fun for days without having to worry about anything back home…I’ve experienced that once with my family 3 years ago in Brisbane, Australia…and we’ll grab any chance out there possible to go through that again, I can still vividly remembered how everything turned out and took place on a family trip like that…haaaaaaahhhhh, I know that officemate of mine will definitely facing the same joy together with his family, and by tomorrow morning at this very moment, he is already with his family touching down in MACAU…yup, and that sure does filled me up with all the jealousy needed to hold my inner rage up at him…aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Hahahahaha…little that I know that my ‘aaarrrgggghhh’ is actually far from over…while I’m slowly digesting the fate of everyone’s luck on going on an end of the year holiday, J2 decided to show up…J2 came in a form of another officemate that somehow I realized he’s been wondering around in the office for days…as if he’s kinda Jobless…well, this guy is actually a friend to a cousin of mine back in Australia (not that I’m the one who got the job here or anything, it’s just something that I simply wanna mentioned :P )…It’s kind of a surprise to know that he’s already back here and fully employed while my cousin is still in Australia for another year…hmmmmm…anyway, while he was wondering around closely to my place, I decided to stop him with a HI and we had a small chat…as I asked him about his ‘free timeline’ for the past few days, apparently he has the answer for that…HE IS LEAVING THE COMPANY AND HIS LAST DAY IS 2 DAYS FROM NOW…yup, well, I guess there’s nothing for me to be jealous about, or at least I thought I should…he told me he’s leaving cause he wants to continue his studies in Warwick University (Malaysia Campus) and fly back to Australia to accept this job offer and become a resident there with his GF…OH MY GOD!!!...what a beautiful life that will turn out to be…yeah, for him at least…as for me, I smiled at him while little that he know that I was grinding my teeth with FULL ENVY TO THE EXTREME!!!...Arrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh…DOUBLE AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!....I WANNA GO ON A BREAK TOO BUT I DON’T KNOW WHERE TO GO AND WHO TO GO WITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!...End… J